A way to heaven...

Who would've guessed...

2007-03-08T03:23:00.004-08:00

" Picture Courtesy of http://babs.com.au ; Darling River "

I met up with a friend I knew long time ago and we were chatting and all, he seemed to be all hyped up about doing business and how to earn those bucks. So he pop this question ( which I already have heard people asking actually and I am sure he heard it from someone ), who would've guessed we would drink from bottles and buy water in bottles today? Well, soon enough, someone might be asking you, who would've thought that we had to drink our own processed pee over and over again today.

Don't say never and don't be surprise if it ever!

The `Darling River' in Sydney seemed to be a just one of those close enough sign for you to observe global warming, since north pole is just too far. Today is has dried up 50% of its natural water, and you've guessed it right this time Einstein, it's not going to stop there.

When we think about northpole, what comes to mind? Santa Claus!!! You got it right again. But Santa has thick clothes and is surrounded by beautiful white ice and snows ( in movies ), so next time, Santa Claus is about to live on a large boat, probably like a cruise or something cause all ice would be gone by 2040.

Dearest all, the beautiful ice there isn't the only thing that is gone when it's gone, your land, the one your foot sets on, the one we always complaint of how difficult it is to take a few steps just to get to the other side of the road, would also be gone. Nothing leaves earth unless you put it up in space, first you will have to take out billions from your pockets. But if you haven't had any of those, try to think where the water goes when the ice melts. Oh yes, this is a little child science, ice forms from water, and when ice melts, it return to waters.

Let's invite another massive flood, let's burn a little rubbish today, cut off a little trees to make the 56th cupboard you want to replace because the old one is just a sore to the eye.

Let us SWIM! Ouh, some of us can't swim...so lets watch em die! So let us do something today, so the children we tried so hard to keep them living today, wouldn't die tommorow.

If forgetting all cause for the sake of money is your way, then hell is your place.

2007-03-06T18:04:00.000-08:00

Take time to watch the video no matter how slow it will load. I will never go to a circus again no matter how humane they treat their performing animals. Because first we do not know what happens behind and even if we know, my dear friends, animals are not meant to do things like that for your entertainment. It is the same as you or your family members being forced into prostitution, something you wouldn't rarely do, just so that another person gets to earn a living. And if they were mistreated, it is the same is if you don't sleep with your client, you get beat up! Now in what way is that fun to watch?

Would you be watching if its your daughter who is having sex with another man by force and call that entertainment? The only answer needed is either yes or not, no buts, or other questions to go with it. If its yes, welcome to the circus, you can already have one right at the comfort at your own home. If no, STOP going to the circus. Kids can do many more fun things, bring them to the park, bring them for animated movies in the cinema, make them play sports, which is healthy for their body and mind...trains them to be competitive and make them fit. That's the way to live a happy life, not to live a happy one, on the expense of another...especially when it means pain and suffering for another.

Remember, we all have a role on earth, and if it is nothing so great that the world will know, it must be at least not to participate in cruelty, however ungreat that might sound, it is greater than the person who leads the country to freedom, because you are responsible and has contributed to a change which will impact the whole world, and to fight for one which is unable to fight. That makes you a hero! Be one today. Cruelty must not be the way of life and the message must be sent out, because the way it is going today, if your child is happy watching circus today, your grandchildren may live in a world one day where cruelty and immorality becomes irrelevant, that may mean, one day of happiness equals to death for your future generations. Now how is that good for your child?

Pictured entry...hot and cold..

2007-02-06T02:59:00.003-08:00

And one time my petsis was commenting about having photos in my blog so that it doesn't look so long, boring, dull. I do agree but fact is when I first write this, I have no intention that it be written for anyone to read. Or at least not anyone public, only one or two, the main intention was that once I read that writting diaries and blogs actually help people reduce pressure and stress.
So this is where I'll start having pictoral....and perhaps I shall make it a little more interesting believing people would actually come to read.

At the news today...I was reading about the end of the world. No. I am just kidding, but not entirely not true either. It is reported that unseasonable warm weather has encouraged the "Titan Arum" to bloom early. Or to be more accurate on what the article said, "Unseasonably warm weather may have tricked the world's smelliest plant into blooming in the middle of the northern hemisphere winter" .It is also known as the corpse flower.....why? Probably the smell is why

Now the flower can be tricked into blooming early...this is a scary thing to do. It has now become human? Plants and animals were one of the most innocent being, or at least in my opinion. And today, they finally are changing because of the world. And when the world all go upside down, I seriously wonder what will happen to man.
Unrelated to whatever happened, I was thinking about the word and the act of revenge the other day. You know, revenge is a selfish act. You do not bring back things to the original position of life when you engage revenge. Lets say your brother dies because some asshole kills him or something. What do you do? Kill him back. It doesn't bring your brother back, it doesn't make him happier either. The only person who feels satisfied or at least more satisfied would be you, and you yourself or whoever who felt the pain of that death. Revenge is only an act to make you feel better, not make things better. So here comes the catch, what happens to punishment?
When I search for revenge, the first picture that comes up was picture of the comic of cows and man.
Apparently its good cause it gives a little comic relief to my entry it seems.

Now, punishement is also doing some hurt to the person who first hurt. But what is that which differentiates punishment and revenge? Everyone has their own opinion on it, you can give me yours....while I'll give mine, probably in the next entry.........

Pictured entry...hot and cold..

2007-02-06T02:59:00.000-08:00

Now the flower can be tricked into blooming early...this is a scary thing to do. It has now become human? Plants and animals were one of the most innocent being, or at least in my opinion. And today, they finally are changing because of the world. And when the world all go upside down, I seriously wonder what will happen to man.
Unrelated to whatever happened, I was thinking about the word and the act of revenge the other day. You know, revenge is a selfish act. You do not bring back things to the original position of life when you engage revenge. Lets say your brother dies because some asshole kills him or something. What do you do? Kill him back. It doesn't bring your brother back, it doesn't make him happier either. The only person who feels satisfied or at least more satisfied would be you, and you yourself or whoever who felt the pain of that death. Revenge is only an act to make you feel better, not make things better. So here comes the catch, what happens to punishment?
When I search for revenge, this is the first picture that comes up.
Apparently its good cause it gives a little comic relief to my entry it seems.

Now, punishement is also doing some hurt to the person who first hurt. But what is that which differentiates punishment and revenge? Everyone has their own opinion on it, you can give me yours....while I'll give mine, probably in the next entry.........

Hate...leads to the dark side.

2007-01-27T02:22:00.000-08:00

A topic came up in my head today due to a conversation I had with a very good friend. And so I thought, what makes one person hates the other? Sometimes, you just hate the other person even if they did not do anything to you. Why? The mere looks, the voices, the hair. Whatever they have just makes you hate them. Why? Try to imagine if this is God, and He just hates you no matter what you do. You'd really be doomed. The question here is, are christians suppose to hate? Animals don't hate....that's what make them so superior and in fact, more Christ like than any human here on earth. So it tickles me whenever man say we should all be Christlike, animals are lower than us, bla bla. But from the logic and the facts that we are presented today, it doesn't seem like it. They are more forgiving, they love without limits...what else. It shall be continue. I am suppose to run now.......brother's birthday dinner. Its his 20! No more teen-age.

Stupidity and love...

2007-01-26T09:16:00.000-08:00

People say love makes you do stupid thing, love actually makes you stupid sometimes, and if you don't want to be stupid, then stop acting like one, when you're in love. You know there are different types of people....some common ones are, when they're in love with a guy/girl....you who are their friend, are somehow told a lot about their this new partner thing. They come and show you their pictures, tell you where they went, what they ate, how their parents laugh at them, giggle till the cows come home but the funny thing is, they never think why would I want to know so much about your partner in the first place? It is like when I love my foot so much ( let's say ) and out of nonwhere I come out and tell you how pretty is my foot and oh how many miles we've walked together, oh sometimes it stinks( giggle..) but I love the aroma it gives, and bla bla. You know what I mean? Don't give me a piece of it. I know you're in love, its even better for you not to even talk to me at all if that's what you love to talk to me about. No I am not here to share that with you. Friends should share? So now when you have sex we can do threesome? I don't think so, so hey, why not you keep your love to yourself and when you're talking to me, we talk to me? Don't tell me how good looking your boyfriend is, because I am not gay in the first place and if I am, you wouldn't want me to know.
I can understand the feeling of being so madly in love and all over your partner but after a while I learn that telling the other person about that special someone of yours so much, seriously, it is not an interesting common topic. Oh but you say I love him/her so much so I got to tell the world....be my guess cause I can definitely provide you with some numbers to call, you just tell me which national newspaper you want the announcement to be in.
You can tell me all about your partner and expect me to accept it and listen happily, I mean, not that I am not happy you found someone. I am....please remember I am not that old and my memory is still working. You need not remind me with things about them every once in a while unless I ask. If you still insist you must, I shall listen but the day you break up.......you be prepared to listen to me telling you, that you are stupid and your partner is right, you're the asshole and so on. Wouldn't sound nice and comforting isn't it? Where's the rationale? The rationale is here, you continuously praised your partner a thousand or trillion times that you made him as perfect as can be, when you guys breaks up, it has GOT to be your fault and you must be the asshole.
This condition is something like what my friend said, and I think you're right phungkie...what's wrong with these `in love' people anyway? The moment you fall in love it is as if no one else should matter and you're the most important person, your feelings and your partner's.
No offence, but if you got a boyfriend/girlfriend...tell me once, and trust me my memory power, as bad as it can be, I can definitely remember it until the day you tell me you guys are breaking up. Seriously, what in the world makes you think I would fall in love with what you fell in love with? You don't wanna hear about my underwear right? Well I don't wanna hear about your partner either. And for your information its rude...cause communication is between me and you when me and you are talking. Not between you and him/her when me and you are talking. Get that right. If I wanna know about your partner, trust me I will ask.
Problem is, I don't even see you talking about your parents like that....you don't love them? Or you just love your partner 30 times more?
No pun intended...I am not so into love kinda thing...probably I've reached an age where love is no longer something I am longing for, tried it...ain't nothing special with it. So whoever read this, please do me a favour before I do something like never initiate to first say hi to you? If I used to say HI and I stopped, its probably that! ....adios

For the first shall be the last, in the kingdom of heaven.

2007-01-19T04:26:00.000-08:00

Does it simply means, if you get the last train ticket here on earth you will be presented with first class seat up there? Well, something like that in my opinion. However, today something funny occur and my thoughts just couldn't allow it to let go. My very loved pet sister however disagree when I generalize and said that all puts those in first place tends to lose them, and those whom they let behind, are always there for them.
Have you had an occasion where you have a notebook or something but you just couldn't be bothered with it. However once upon a time when you were younger you tend to just put in photos, and writting and records there once in a while and then after a while you get bored, you throw them aside and it looks like it just disappeared from your life? You ever treasured that brand new cellphone so much you just leave everything else behind? Suddenly one day, you lost your cellphone and your address book is gone with it, pictures are bygones, nothing else is left of you and your cellphone and you just can't find it, someone just probably stole it or you just misplace it and lost it? Out of nowehere, your old notebook suddenly appears and has many things inside which may not be what the cellphone's worth to you, but certainly made you sit down in your little cozy room and flip it page by page. Where did the book came from? It was always there! It didn't leave you, you left the book. What about your cellphone? You didn't leave it to be gone, it left you! Or someone took it from you! Sometimes, well.....nothing is perfect so there's no such thing as everytime I suppose; life's like that. Things you make first, came to last and the last thing in your life became first.
Perhaps there is a hidden message in the gospel when it talks about first shall be the last. We tend to prioritize the wrong things in life. Many things of that which we want to keep and make first and foremost important top secret first class item in our life ( it can range from money, computers, PDA, girlfriends/boyfriends, friends ) can sometimes turn out to be the very thing that leave us. Somehow it is just human nature, how many times have you actually seen that when parents abandon their kids, it is actually your boyfriend/girlfriend or friend who was all the way around you and back you up, and what are the odds that you're putting in more time with family than with friends? Perhaps it is usually the other way round, our prioritization is always the other way round. And even if you did this well enough and you somehow put the right things up in your life and the least thing last, you will always see one or two things in life you put it the wrongside up, and you tend to fall back on the things that you placed last in life. Of course do not mistake this with personal interest and attitude. Its not saying that, you should now focus more on playing and enjoying and partying and put your studies last, so that one day study will all come back to you when you fall. Look at it properly, if you put your education, hardwork all last....the only thing you're probably going to fall back is still your parents, which is still right in accordance to the theory I mentioned.
Quotes and dreams and wishes are never to be used to be an excuse to slack and lay back about life. Its meant to be a cushion if you fall from somewhere you have climbed. Not a cushion for you to lay back, you have never climbed anywhere before, you're just laying there. No!

....you grow up poor, you realize it every second of your life

2007-01-14T11:21:00.000-08:00

Now that topic was just to start this off and the later part may not be related. A continuation from the previous article of you growin up poor but you don't really realize it cause you were so loved? Some people struggle very much with being `not very wealthy', and complains about the money, wanting to make more and do whatever it takes, its really good to motivate yourself and all to work for things you want but its despicable if you put your dignity on the line. And if you grow up not so wealthy and you feel it each and every second, it probably meant one thing, you LACK love and finding more money wouldn't cure that problem brothers and sisters! Money keeps you living so you could find love, not the other way round. See, don't you think its ridiculous that you fall sick so that you can take medication? Rather than you took it because you got ill? Now medicine here would work like money, you take it when you're ill, to bring you up again so that you can go on with life. Not, you take more medicine and you heal so that you can find for more medicine. We call that drug addicts and if you're living in a world different from mine where you call these powerful people you better remind me where you live.
Second of all, the most important part I realize is there is a very very thin line that separates denial of truth, and being positive. Many, which is not even worth mentioning here but if you feel it, it really didn't mean to hit you but if it did, probably you can do something, only if you want to, if you don't, its not my life anyway right? Well, take this....a kid takes too much drug in his blood and suddenly one day died, his parent while he was alive, just didn't took the time to care for him and it wouldn't matter too much if he was out or in the house. Indirectly causing the intoxication and boom, there goes another life. Lets call this boy Jack just to make it more imaginable. And not Jack's parent, Mr. and Mrs. Thomas are too busy doin their work and stuffs and all. They didn't even realize if Jack wasn't around at home last night or not, but they're so tired, they jus went straight to bed. Be it ignorance or what, Jack has been on drugs for 2 and a half years, and one day he just drop and fell really ill, and never woke up again.
See, you can choose to respond it many ways. You can say, no, this is all the will of God and he was destined to die as a lesson to everyone out there. And console yourself, that this isn't your fault on not giving enough attention to Jack. Or maybe you could've just say that, God did all this for a purpose and we man do not know of His will so we will accept it as it is, but we know God is good and whatever He's done must be good, so this is good; in other words. OR maybe you can twist that fact a little bit and say, yea God really indeed have allowed this to happen, rather than making it happen and say I admit it is my fault. It is not good, we are not good, we let him die on us, we didn't even realize if he had his dinner or not, what more drugs? The good thing is, we finally admit our fault, what's next? Go to church and cry out loud, pray all you can and start working the next day cause life goes on, and no money no life? Of course its important to have money but remember you don't get the medicine to fall sick, you fall sick then you consume the medicine, and if you are making money in your life like as if you're living for it and you would fall sick and let go of everything because of money, don't you think its time you end your life? What do you want from those money? To be happy, to be healthy, to live well, loved....and suddenly when you start working so hard and do whatever it takes to face heartbreaks, disrespectful life, bla this and that, you're doing it the wrong way? The right way to make money is to keep the intention right. To make your loved ones happy, and putting your life or dignity down is never gonna make anyone who loved you proud nor happy. Look at your life today, and if you're not making money the right way as I am talking about here, I seriously think its about time you start to make it right. Don't go to church and pray 30 times in 29 minutes, eat the bread 3 loaf of the bread of life and drink the whole bottle of wine which rerpesents the blood. Symbolic action is nothing without the right way of life. In fact, the very thing about Jesus' last supper was that He came in clean hands and His life was all right and He ate there so that everyone remembers that you get yourself clean before you start coming to take a part of this. You cannot be perfect and no one is asking you to, but if you didn't do it right one by one, you're not even close to being right.
Once I was reading this quote somewhere and it inspires me to give faith a benefit of doubt, it goes somethin like, Christians are not good people, but people who knows they are wrong. Again, suddenly...I think that sentence mean knowing you're wrong; then fix it! Knowing itself ain't getting you nowhere. If I kill you today and say I know I am wrong, too bad. I'll just live on but I already know I am wrong, thats enough? Wow, ain't life for a Christian as easy as breathing air? Oppresion from another religion isn't the hardest part of Christian life. The hardest part comes from pressing yourself to fix things and as hard as it can be, let them slap you on the right when they slapped the left. I have yet to see a single human capable of doing that in my whole life. Don't avoid wrongdoings by saying things like; its ok, the whole community is against me and say I am wrong, this is the work of the devil and God is testing me to stand strong. If Jesus were to be like that, he would't took the cross and throw it down the valley of no end and tell the world, come and consume me and God will do me justice. National geographic won't have a program to find out how Jesus was crucified on the cross instead, where did the cross went? He wasn't wrong to begin with, but He lets you slap Him both sides. Today all I can see is, we're all wrong to begin with, and then we put some cream on the cheek and say, God will watch after me. Stop being defensive. Lets get some slapping. You will never know how Jesus feels and what God wanted in your life until you be like that. The question to close this topic; ask yourself this..do I let people slap me on the left, when they slapped my right? Or after they slapped my right, I build up a wall and say, GOD IS MY SHELTER....and be one the watch for any incoming slaps?
Truly if that was how God wanted us to be, I don't think the slap left and right thing would be in the bible wouldn't it? Wouldn't it probably be something like, when they slap you on the right......hit them where it hurts most?

The coma..

2007-01-10T20:20:00.000-08:00

How could someone says he love god, but then he doesn't love some people? It is like saying you can love something you cannot see but couldn't love something you can see. Why is that? My ways of looking at humans is always one, humans are all selfish. Always! In any situation. It is always me first, and everyone else second even if it appears otherwise. God seems easier to love doesn't it? In most cases, god doesn't stop you from doing things, doesn't argue with you, doesn't trick you nor shout at you. Whereas humans on the other hands are different and they do whatever the opposite of what it is that the current relationship man has with god.
Is this how it should be? Christianity says `love your enemies'. In other words, love is definitely not easy in the this context. And if loving is easy in your life, then you really have to re-evaluate whether or not you are living the word or your word. There is, a vast difference!
Oh sure you can love the guy next door in a coma, he won't fight with you over anything, he just shuts up no matter what you say, and silence usually amounts to `ok I am with you'. And finally God's will becomes our own silent will. The illusionary will we self created. If anything was to be god's intend I would rather believe that making us love humans and making another human irritate us is all in his scope of studies for any of us. Yes, you don't expect god to come telling you, no I don't agree with you, why are you so stupid can you grow up get a job, and your girlfriend, she is low. Now you will start to get offended. What if god was one of us. What if someone you see today and irritates you, and you just cursed him up and down and at the end of the day, someone tells you, that was god in disguise? The ultimate answer would be, no that wouldn't be god because god being god will not do things like that, those are low things, those are evil things. You can go ahead and think like that, but start not to contradict the teaching in anyway. It is said that god is kind and god is love, yes...but they also say god is a jealous god, and also god's action and intend is beyond human's comprehension. For crying out loud you don't even know how god looks like or what colour he is, what makes you think you know him and know how he might behave or how he does things? Just cause you have a book called the bible that supposedly record million of years of his works? Think again if you want to believe that god is just the bible and nothing more, you're probably belittling him isn't it? And now suddenly god the almighty is someone you know, someone predictable, someone you can have a foresight of what he will and will not do? Don't think like that my friends. God does not need anyone to create an excuse for what he does and does not do. Even if he appears in the form of humans to test you, DO NOT give reason and say god will not be so and he can not do that? Hey, you just said he was almighty and don't you think he can do anything and perhaps he's doing something we don't even expect? So now he's beyond our expectation and suddenly you know what he will and will not do? If he is just what you think he will do, doesn't that make you higher than him and you the almighty all knowing? Don't put out possibilities of what god is and what god can do. Otherwise, don't say god is great. Because if he can only do what you think he can do or what the bible has spoken of him, and that is his limit. Doesn't he now be more like a robot and the bible, a manual for his operations? He is good says the bible. And now you interpret it as, no he won't come down pretend as a human and trick me into losing my temper to see what I will do. Suddenly the part where we always talk about that we do not know what he will do comes in handy. When one's life, a good man, charitable, loving suddenly is taken away from his beloved and what do you want to say about it? He's bad? NO! Same reason, we have no idea why he does what he did. Just because you think it is a bad thing, doesn't mean it is to him because you forgot, ultimate intend lies in his decision and scope of understanding....NOT YOURS. By the way, the bible consist of many things he is, but it also does not limit what he is. So do decide on what you want your god to be. To be the god which has a manual to tell you how to operate with you( the bible ) or the manual is nothing but a brief introduction of what he could actually do but not what all he can do, and it doesn't limits the `him'. If you've read the bible and can suddenly come out to tell what god can and will do and its impossible for him to do this nor that, then stop telling people god is great because that book no matter how thick it is, limits him and not only that it limits him, it already enables you to know him in and out ( I always thought it was suppose to be the other way round, cause we did not create him? ).
So back to the original point.....if you find it hard to love another but you could love his creator, stop being a hypocryte! For once stop giving excuses..and start doing something. It is easy to love god and not human. Did god tells you loving is going to be easy? No, it tells you everything but easy...and that is suppose to be life of christians, and if the loving you have in your life is easy...you have got to relook your love and start loving also the difficult to love and be Christ like. You do not choose who to love, you just love them all. Its easier to love the guy in coma, one who cannot fight, argues, or defend you in words you can hear or actions you can see. Stop making god a coma guy by loving him and not everything he created. This article has got nothing to do with seeking for acceptance nor asking for correction. Its an article to be read, so read and choose. It only asked you to think. Not come up with another excuse of how this is not right. If its not right you go on and live the life you thought it was right, after all, life's simpler if its your way isn't it? Anything which is difficult to do, we shut it out and find reasons for it. If you think its right, isn't it time to make some changes?
Just for the record, humans are full of excuses and reasons. Try to observe yourself or another daily and see how many times people give reasons for everything, and use the word, "..because, but then, however..."

....you grow up poor, but so loved you don't even realize it

2007-01-09T00:08:00.000-08:00

A phrase I caught in Oprah when Eva Longoria was in the show. Chinese has a saying that goes, `...with love, you can survive with water'... as in a sarcastic way saying no way, love isn't enough. That saying wasn't meant to be like that. Of course it depends on how you want to see it or anyone else. I think its meant to be like how Oprah put it. Its not that you can live without a single cent in your pocket as long as you have love. But you can survive living the days by the day and won't even feel tortured, opressed when you are loved. Nuf said? More to come...

Don't sit and wait....

2006-12-30T21:38:00.000-08:00

I have been talking to several people. Please take note that this post has got nothing to do with me thinking I am better than anyone else and I at times may be what I am describing here but will still always have worries about the next day. There are people whom you can see from their outward appearance that they are just like that. They say don't judge a book by its cover. But you can see it somehow, they're not groomed, messy, dirty looking maybe too fat, or too thin, don't bother to dress properly, smell of sweat this and that, not studying nor working and whenever asked, comes up with excuses which makes you wanna go, yea those reasons are really gonna help you. Its ok to take a break from work and study, I am fine with it but seriously a direction has got to be set. You can sit around for 2 years, its all ok, but if you're not decided on whats the next step ( at least have thoughts like, oh I am going to try look for a job/degree tommorow ) then you're a slob and please either do some community work or volunteer at the animal shelter or something. Today we have the computer and ability to get online, WHAT if this is 30 years ago. What you gonna do when you have no job, no study, no work, nothing...then you sit around in the house eathing chips and watching national tv? That's ok for you? Man you are going to be paralysed. Clean the house, do something. Principles and plans don't work if even your short term plan doesn't work. You talk about when I work in the future, I am going to work but now is not working time. If you can't get your appointment right, you always make people wait, or you always have the self believe that things must be done slow and steady, I think its high time you wake up. What kind of principles are those based on? Principles of `I can be less a human before I started working?' Never gonna work. You will be like that when you work and anytime at all. Just tell me how does 10 years bad habit change the moment you graduate? In a day? Or two? You god or something. Wow! Praise be to you! Good work ethics and habits, including ordinary human habits, should start from childhood and if it didn't...at least let it start from the moment you took your degree course.
Don't just sit at home....do something...get a job, go to school, do some charity. Not sit at home, or get online. If the chair you're sitting on had feelings, she would really be offended you being on her head 24/7. Give them a break man!

They will never come...

2006-12-20T21:25:00.000-08:00

People live in this world have all one thing in common, the fact is they do not know where they are really going to after death, and no one really has that faith that god really exist. If faith was so strong and true, then one who proclaim their beliefs in god would've gave up everything if so called god asked them to do. From the community I know, 100% of christian sleep with each other before marriage. Be it just another small rule the bible gives, but the disobedience rate is 100%. In the first place, how can we be sure the bible is right and whatever portray to us is right? Jesus was portrayed as a long haired man, yet another article goes around saying that Paul clearly mentions that it is shameful for a man to have long hair, which clearly means that during Jesus' time he did not have long hair because it is shameful for one to have long hair at that time. Unless Jesus was a rebellious man at that moment, which I wasn't told. When the earth was fresh and new, man are exposed to many germs and bacteria which cause them to fall sick easily. Over time, you may call it evolution, our body mutates in a way that our immune system learns about the bacteria and builds a defense system over it and hence today, we do not fall sick by breathing dirty air polluted all the bacteria which may seemed hazardous to mankind say, 1million years ago. The point I was about to say is that humans, throughout the years of evolution has found a defend system for their actions also. The bible is interpreted in millions of different books, each may vary little from the other, but varies a lot when a different person is reading it. One scripture clearly says, that `christian must be prepared to give reasons for their faith, and do it in a gentle way as not to offend people'. That statement was practice but not literally, christians use reason for their actions which are wrong.
It is really sad, when your friends and family backstabbed you......its actually forgiveable if they are not christians. But it is not forgiveable when they tell you how good god is and how they're trying their best walking that road, yet the fact shows that, they're swaying furthest from it.
Should faith has a measure? Level 1, level 2? Or should faith be just faith? If today a so called pastor walks up to you and tells you that today god ask you to give up your carreer, and go into a bible school and start going into missionaries, would you? If you're paid a thousand dollar a month, you might, if you're paid 20thousand a month, you won't. That's a fact, don't deny it. If you say no, show me your case. And then perhaps one might come up with the question after being called and say, `..well i wouldn't know if that pastor is saying what god wanted me to do or it was just a mistake.' So now the pastor do not speak words from god when it is something you are unwilling to give up deep inside your heart. Yes, you may say, of course I am willing to give up but it has really got to be from god, I won't just give up because a pastor came and tell me so. There you got it! Are you now doubting the man of god who stands up there, whom all believe he was chosen to be there? And now you think that his words might not be from god to you. The classic excuse I hear are usually that, or well if that's god's will for me, god will speak to me directly. So which is the way god comes and speak to you? There is no way which are perfect of his will unless it coincides with your will. Face it, we only hear and follow what we like about our life. Being a christian is like this if it is to be illustrated in the worldly sense. There is this biggest company in the world, and the company pays their employees higher than the king of the world is getting. But the thing is this, they tell you...the payment comes when it all has ended...but you're sure to get your payment..and our company is so strong, if you're with this company, you are literally the brothers of our CEO, and our CEO is bigger than the king of kings. You can find another job elsewhere, but you are still employed under us, there will be no breach of contract. But although you are considered the brother of our CEO, you must do kind to another so that you will get more at the end of the day. We won't pay you till 100 years later. You don't get to see our CEO, we will send someone to transfer you the message from time to time and our CEO's will to your life. Here we include for you a guidebook, you read it and do not disobey these rules because we see your actions all the time.
Are you kidding me? When people don't see cameras around them, do you think they'd be afraid? You just lost the little wind cap of your tyre. You're now at a parking lot, now you know that taking from another without permission is stealing whether or not it is a small item or big. You saw another cap, you look around, you see no cameras, would you be more daring to take it then when there are actually cameras? The point is this, you can go to church everyday and people telling you god is watching, but it has become evident throughout million of years that if human does not see, mere listening to warning may never be sufficient. Faith is believing without seeing, the second part to that definition was never told....to believe without seeing only the things we really wanted in our heart whether we know it or not.
Now you walk around as the brother of the CEO who is bigger than the king of kings knowing that only you and people who work for that company may go to that place for shelter and reep all the benefit, do you think as humans, you will not have a subconcious pride that tells you, I am now higher and more knowdlegeable than the rest, those who do not see are blind and I pity you, let me enlighten you kinda attitude?
Listen, let us change the religion for a bit. What if, one day, another part of the bible was discovered by theologist, a whole book, and this book, comes right after the book of revelation and the whole book speaks this; ....brothers and sisters, for all the whole entire book is telling you to believe we are now to announce to you, that heaven is already crowded with angels and heavenly beings, there is no room for mankind after life. When you die, life would be over and you will know nothing because all memory will be erased and pain will be removed and you will ceast to exist forever, only we, the angels, and god will be having life in heaven. BUT we would still want you to do all that the bible is telling you to do, obey the ten commandments and do good to one another. Sin will not be punished, if you die, you die like the rest of the world's people whether they believe or not in god. That and more, all reversed from the benefit and priviledges that we were suppose to get. Two questions, would you still tell people you are a christian? Would you still try your so called best to be good? If it was certain that there will be no heaven nor after life for you? You have got to put your head into it and believe that there is no after life and no sin will be punished after life. What would your honest answer be? I cannot answer for you, but being a human...people will start do be different. We are all the same, we live and do something with the hope of some reward and the hope of evading punishments. Christian, or non christians. Good enough that speeding is punishable by the law, yet people still speed, christians too....and please, the bible tells you to obey the ruling government's law also mind you. Even with punishments in mind, people still do it. Now do you think if they remove that law, but place a speed limit, would you obey it knowing there will not be any punishment?
Is this how christian life is suppose to be? Living by the rules because there is such thing as punishment and reward?
From my little knowledge, god did not create man to be a robot but be a mindful of himself and watch his own act. Which is why Adam and Eve was created. Created and only given the advice of not doing sinful act. They have no knowledge of the after life, and they have no knowledge of the punishments, but only was told that they would die if they eat the apple. .they still ate it due to temptations. Because knowledge sounds better to them. If man was born with sins because of Adam, then man are all the same as Adam is. They will always choose what which is in the world than the rest. As a matter of fact, I was making a joke about how forgiving God is to punish man for millions of years just because Adam ate an apple. Death is incorporated to our body because of one man's sin millions of years ago and it is only through Jesus that we can be forgiven. If such, does that mean that our actions won't matter? Because if its not Jesus saving you, whatever good you do, won't do any good for you? Then why bother? And, if it was only after Jesus' death that we are now saved, everyone else mentioned in the bible before the coming of Jesus are now in hell? If not in hell, then why need Jesus to come? What difference does it make? Is Moses in hell? What about David? They all died before Jesus came. So whatever happens to them?
For god so loved the world that he sent his only begotten son to die for us....do you love god that way? Would you die for him? Would you, if you know that the only reward after that is nothing? Do you actually understand what love is? Do you love god or do you love yourself more?
Why do I asked like that? Let me explain.
Lets say you would die for god, would you die for god if god tells you no afterlife for you, no meeting me, but if you die for me, I will be glad about you and I will be happy. Will you still die for him? If you still will, that is loving god. If you will only die for him because of his promise for eternal life, and punishments if you do not obey him, you only love yourself too much that you want to work towards that purpose for you to reep at the end of the day. If all those hopes and dreams and rewards and punishments diminished, would you still go to church, would you still do what he ask you to do?
You may come out with reasons like, no, god will not be that kind of god. I have faith. God is good and all. I am telling you to give it a hypothetical situation. Its not an issue of who and how god is here. The spotlight is on YOU! It is if god have no reward for you, would you still love him? It is a test to see whether you love him, or you love yourself. Its not an issue of how god really is, and what are there in the after life....it is a question, it does not require you to tell me how god really is, god will not do this, the bible never said so. Its a hypothethical question...you are suppose to answer it, not build flowers around and say the shit you offered is not true, this flower is the truth...to put it in a straight way, if shit comes and shit is all you have, what would you do? Question yourself, and ask yourself, it is for the love of yourself that you believe in god or it is for the love of god you believe in him.....

Grow up...

2006-11-26T23:06:00.000-08:00

Today my sister had a disappointing day over some small issues. My mum came back as usual when my sis was having her usual down time, made lots of noises and bla bla and asked this one sarcastic question that hit my head. `...I really don't know when you guys are going to grow up.'
Perhaps I have an answer to that. And perhaps the fault isn't totally one sided. Perhaps...if you would let us grow up and treat us like one, our natural human mechanism would at least force us to grow up. I do believe in many occasions there lies a 50-50 fault principle. Steven Covey had his 90-10 principle. I had my 50-50 principle in fault. Steven explains that, imagine on a breakfast table, you and your family having the usual breakfast, milk, toast, etc...and suddenly your kid spilled his milk. Now, your kid contributed to 10 of the situation, how you react to that, holds the 90. The 50-50 works in the same way in many incidents in fault. Fault finding exist and its not a bad thing to do, if you do it the 50-50 way. It won't work in every situation, but it certainly does in a phsychological way. Which here I am going to apply to the `..I wonder when you guys arae going to grow up issue'. Did you in the first place treats us like grown ups and let us take responsibilities as one or do you try to settle things for us the way you did when we were 5 years old? Do you talk to us like we're 30 or do you talk to us still believing we're the 3 year old we used to be? Do you cover us and do you still try to make decision for us? Do you expect us to follow them? Everyone after a certain age, not only grows physically but also mentally and suddenly there builds this defence and control mechanism inside themself. My question is, how would you feel as a wife, if not your mother comes telling you whether or not you can have a baby? What you name them and when you should have them, which school they should go to? If you think that is fine with you, that will be fine with all your 30 year old child when you try to impose your decision in their lifes. Marriage is not the cutting point of control over own life. It was never and will never be a valid reason for giving that amount of freedom to choosing your own life. Because if such is the case, hypothetically, if one isn't married at the age of 60, they'd still be under the control and decisions of their parents? Or if your daughter got pregnant and got married age at the age of 13( hypothethical, unless a man who sleeps with another girl at that age wouldn't be convicted of statutory rape)be free of your decisions for her? Looking back at the history of mankind...those who made a name for themself are those whom took a way not one which their parents have decided for them, but one which they believe and have passion in and go all the way with it. Of course, a parent's advice can do no wrong, but seriously how difficult it can be for someone to give you advice like study hard, get a professional degree, be a doctor or a lawyer and that will secure your life, I know because I've seen more life than you have. Is that even an advice? Perhaps someone who lives by the street who begs for food and eat a meal a day would know that. No pun intended......

I have always been an admirer...

2006-11-07T02:14:00.001-08:00

...of the 10 commandments....
Let us all start the day today, with what you have done with these commandments...and evaluate it? Answer these simple questions and tell give me your personal opinion(s). Tell me what do you think it meant for you, and how have you been practicing it, and if not good enough, what are you doing to make it better in this sense...and lastly, were you honest about what you just said or you said it because it should be said that way, and that was how you were taught about? When you were writting it, were you thinking of what was the best answer or were you thinking that I don't care and I just wanna tell the truth....the first thing that got people into this religion...the truth shall set you free, do not forget the roots.

No right or wrong answer, only personal opinions, like a survey...I am dying to see how life as a christian is really like in our `real' life..

Number 1: Thou shalt have no other Gods before me...

Start talking....

The contraversy of discussion finally starts today...

2006-11-07T02:03:00.000-08:00

...and when you pray, regret that you have been wrong, and if you don't a prayer for forgiveness is like paying the summons from police for speeding, you never felt you were wrong speeding, you only do it because you know it has to be done, and the next day, you still speed. You pray for forgiveness because you subconciously know that should be the way, but there are no deep regrets of any little wrong you did, the next day, you do it again. Why lie to yourself.....the contraversy of life starts yesterday, the contraversy of discussion, starts today...